Long and Dark, the Night Passes

The Saga of the Long, Dark Night

Elan after the cataracdt operations

Looking at you through shiny new lenses

There was a cataract forming in my left eye, I was told, long before I experienced any loss of visual acuity. It was my weaker eye. It always had been. I was not too concerned, not noticing any difference subjectively.

Perhaps if I had been proactive and did all the holistic things I did later, the long dark night would not have fallen as it did.

But the reality was, I just kept on with my normal routine until my eyesight was noticeably less sharp.It was then I began trying holistic approaches to eyesight improvement. I tried many ways of dealing with the challenge, some nutritional, some physical.

The way of eye movements did not convince me enough to give it a whole hearted try. I really got into  a serious daily regimen of several tinctures that worked for many people, but not for me. The advocate of that method said that if you were far down the slope of cataract growth, it would not work.

Finally, I conceded that I must do what other normal people do, get lens replacement for my eyes.  And, yes it was both. I was beginning to see through a glass darkly, even with my one good eye.

Many well meaning colleagues had been urging me to get this done. “Oh, it doesn’t take long, It isn’t painful. You’ll be able to see better right away. It’s a very routine procedure. Everything goes smoothly and easily.”

It wasn’t fear of the operation that made me delay. It was hope of success from alternative means.

When I moved into the track of the operation, I found that the earliest time I could get was on my birthday. Not much of a party that day. I went to the eye surgery center in Sarasota that was associated with the eye center in Largo. That’s how the Humana program worked.

It was a moderately big deal, spanning an hour plus of prep, the operation itself, and a short time of recovery, bracketed by the van trip from Largo and back. Including travel time it was about five hours of endurance.

The procedure was not quite painful, but was uncomfortable and stressful. I was very glad when it was over. My vision improvement was delayed by the head cold I started the next day. By the time the cold finished a few days later, I could see better with the left eye than with the right.

After two weeks the eye doctor in Largo felt it was ok to go ahead to the next eye. That trip proved similar in endurance, but different in effect. At the end of the operation the surgeon put two sutures in my eye to hold the flap in my cornea closed. So the procedure proved to be a little more stressful than the first time with the addition of the sutures.

On the way back to Largo i broke a sweat sitting in the van. When I arrived at the eye clinic, I entertained myself by going straight to the rest room and throwing up. I managed to hold everything together until Alison drove me home, then I went for round two of the throwing.

The next several hours were spent in bed in the wounded spider asana, which comforts me when I feel really bad. It had been decades since I needed that position and I was gratified that it still had some ameliorative effect.

By the time the dark cloud of unpleasantness passed, Alison and Robert had gone to their respective gigs, teaching clay and playing trumpet, in the Dunedin Fine Arts Center and at the Dunedin Concert Band practice, in two adjacent buildings. They could not witness my cautious return to the world of people who drink nutritional beverages.

The choice for me was a half ounce of Dr Bragg’s Amino Acids with a half ounce of maple syrup in hot water. It helped restore some confidence in me that, yes, life would go on.

The following day I saw the doctor in Largo as a follow up to make sure everything is alright. I still had on the little plastic shield they tape over the operated eye for protection. When the shield came off they saw that things were not alright.

The wound was leaking, said the doctor. Something had to be done immediately. So Alison drove me all the way back to Sarasota to allow the surgeon to do what he could. What he could do was inject me eye with saline solution, a temporary help at best.

They scheduled me for a return operation the following week so i could receive two more sutures. My subjective experience with the result of the operation was that my eye often felt moist and I notice a huge purple ovoid hovering in the right peripheral vision.

It was about this time in the wait for the next operation that I began to have an itchy rash over many places. It reminded me of the measles, although that was a very long time ago. I considered that it might be stress related. Rescue Remedy seemed a good choice for helping, and it did.

After the second two sutures were installed the Largo doctor almost freaked out. The eye was still leaking. He was ready to send me back to Sarasota to have the old sutures removed and new ones installed.

By this time I had made an appointment with Dr. Erika Bradshaw to talk about using intravenous  vitamin C therapy to speed the healing process. I had watched a DVD about this remedy a year before and resolved to try it if need be.

While waiting for that appointment the eye clinic called with the offer to use a glue to hold the would closed. When I asked if they would paint over the sutures, the doctor’s assistant said, no. They would remove the sutures and then apply the glue. It did not seem like a good idea to me. The sutures could well be doing a good job holding things in place.

Having hope, and leaving the proffered glue behind, I went to my meeting with Dr. Erika Bradshaw to talk about my concern and request the vitamin C infusion. She went into detail on my medical history, and agreed with my plan of taking vitamin C intravenously. She even let me have the first infusion immediately.

As subsequent sessions were scheduled, the amount was increased.By the time I had the fourth infusion, I was convinced my would had closed, and was healing well. I made an appointment to see the eye doctor to confirm this.

He did confirm it. And further, recommended an examination to find the appropriate eyeglass prescription. All this happened, and as I write this I now possess two pairs of glasses. One for driving and one for reading. Most of the time I don;’t wear either.

It was not until the eye doctor gave his full approval to the condition of my right eye that I realized how much stress I had been under, and for how long. The post op troubles were just the icing on the cake of stress that I had been carrying for several years.

My liberation from this was a glorious feeling. As the days progressed I felt a strong build of optimism and practical energy.

I don’t blame the alternative remedies I tried before the cataract surgery. Maybe I waited too long to start. Maybe I didn’t do them just right. It was what it was.

Was there a lesson in all this for me? I did what I did. At the end of the process things are very good.

Alternative remedies, holistic treatments, complementary medicine are still high on my list of beneficial sources of wellness. Dr. Erika Bradshaw practices complementary medicine.

To me these topics tie right in to my advocacy of the A-432Hz tuning, which I think of as a healing frequency. It all works together, even if it doesn’t always work the way I want it to.

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